XOXO

Few hours ago, I just had t o talk to love even though I have to go to bed and I know that he's worn out. I just miss him though we met and spent almost the whole day together. I don't know why but I came to realise that I love him that much but he doesn't know. Cause I know I just didn't show. I would want him to be my side every single day but it's not possible. We have our own lives, our own commitments. And I don't know again why I have the sudden urge to blog about this. Despite how irritating he can be, how he always doesn't do things that I expect, I'm still in love with him and it gets stronger day by day. And as I look back, I just felt so stupid about all the things I've done to him and to anyone else. I used to not appreciate the love given but now I strongly believe that love is definitely beautiful whenever you're with the right person. I love you, W.A.

a lot like love.

Haven't had proper blogging these days. Was so caught up with things and more things like never ending work and school. But this time, I gotta say hello to more work and goodbye to school for the time being. Yes right, school's out like finally. So anyways, days been good, very good. Birthdays after birthdays and thank god, every celebration was successful. The latest would be my girlfriend, zara's on the 9th dec. After much lies, planning and all, it turned out awesome cause we managed to bring the girl to tears. Awwwww. So that's it. Next year, the first will be mine. Gawd, I need to start planning but nooooooo im turning old -.- So yeah, today's saturday. I decided to give ZO a miss since my vaginas` aren't around with me. They're out of town this weekend and probably already playing with the breeze at highlands. Sadly, I couldn't tag along since my passport died on me. I skipped a friend's house party as well since the boy decided to ditch ZO as well just to be with me. sweet right this boy. I love you much much. Will be out prolly town-ing while half or more than half the crowd is at siloso partying. haha it's ohkay, as long as I have baby by my side, everything should be great. Alright, he's here. have fun people.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I'm still not satisfied. I'm sick and tired of these things. I need to party. I want a day to ease myself. I don't want you now. I don't feel like talking to you, I don't feel like facing you. I don't need your hugs for comfort. I just want time for myself. For me alone. For me to be with all my friends. Yes that's it, gonna be with the friends later. It's my girlfriend's birthday! goood dayyyyyyyyyy.

i'm just probably confused.

Boyfriend.

I need you to start showing me something I wanted and needed to see other than those cheap 'I love you'

Else, I fear I'll fly away again.

love's fragile.

This time again, I am confused. Is it really love that much or is it just there and then. I pity you, because of my sensitivity acting towards you. It's almost similar to how the exboyfriend treated me like. And now im doing it to you even though how much I don't want to. But all you did was smile. Sometimes, I thought that you still don't know me well, but I'm ust selfish. I shouldn't ask for any more than what you've given cause all you did is to build a decent relationship. Tell me why I am not accepting it still. I still have no clue myself.

You see the changes in me. You know how bad I was. You know you're living in insecurities but one thing I envy, you never give it up. You always hope for the best and accept what you were put to test. It's like wishing for dreams that are uncertain to come true. Hope, love and patience, that defines you.

So tell me I am stupid to feel like this again. I don't want to but I don't know why. sigh.