"FUCK YOU REALLY FUCK YOU & I AM FUCKING OFF RIGHT NOW"

What the fuck is wrong with you again? I was just talking to a good friend of mine and you had to rush me like we're chasing for something. But no, you made me walk out of the less than 5 minutes conversation with my very good friend to follow you with your friends and there you go acting like I'm all invisible. You know how pissed I was? You know how much I hated you. Yes I broke down because I was too angry. You don't know what went through my mind at that point of time. I would most probably walk out on you infront of your friends but because I still have the heart, I decided to stay till you finally notice that I was present. And then you fuck me up which left me with no choice but to really walk away. It's not a good thing you chased cause I was strong on my decision but because again, I have a heart and I AM NOT STUPID LIKE YOU CLAIMED I WAS IN A FUCKING RUDE MANNER, i stayed. And just so you know, I don't give two flying fucks to what your friends are thinking about me cause they don't matter to me at all. 

Up till now, I can't actually forget what had happened. I was just so eager to meetup with my friend and you after sucha a tiring day. Was really lacking of sleep followed by a tiring shift and yet your unreasonable attitude had to rub it in. I totally diss you now. I feel like we will not be happy together cause this is something neverending again. I won't leave my friends just because you don't like them. And right from the start I told you that you can't make me hate my friends just because of you cause you don't know any shit about them. You always assume and you follow what others say. But not me, I know why I love them. I know why they're important. I even know their flaws but their flaws are not the thing I look at cause I know what they have done for me. They've done more than you cause they've been there all along, through my thick and thin which givea me no reason to hate them the way you do. Doesn't mean you're my boyfriend, you have every right. Get that in mind. And i seriously don't feel like talking to you or meeting you now. I would love to scream at your face so that you won't bother me anymore. Yes I am that pissed. and you got yourself to blame for this mess you've created. Sorry boy, I am not that forgiving anymore. Goodbye.

Spot on!

I hate the fact that I can't find time to update, go online or to check important mails. Two more closing shifts and I'll be finally done with my five consecutive working days. I am so so tired and sick of doing the same shit every single day. Waking up at the same time, sleeping at the same time. Even seeing the same people at work everyday which make us feel like there's only us. The feeling suck big time cause by end of the day, I'm all tired and there I go, skipping school again. I brought up the issue about quitting again and of course, mom blew her top. I definitely won't want to quit but the situation is forcing me to. Sigh. But thank god apart from that, I managed to squeeze in time or shall I say I force myself to squeeze time for the boy cause It just feels right whenever he's around me despite the endless arguments we had. And for that, I love this boy to bits. Anyways, me and my girls are planning to hit the club later but i don't know if its a good idea cause one, i'll be having school. two, i'll be having work also. three, some couldn't make it. So tell me whatcha say? But i miss getting high on so many things. HAHA *shakes head*

Oh yea, flights to phuket are booked and I am so sexcited about it cause its gonna be a five days five nights trip! Another trip with the boyfriend but this time, it's on our birthday month anddddddddd my birthday! Tell me about it! So March, please come really fast cause i can't wait for paramore and definitely phuket! As for now, gotta be really really thrifty so that I can spend my pockets out for the trip. teeheeeee can t wait cant wait. and holidays are in, let's partayyyyyyyyyy!

The ex-boyfriend.

It was really unxpected to be on talking terms with you again cause I remembered clearly that I once said, "you'll be the first ex-boyfriend who will never be my friend". And I guess I shall take back those words. Just one comment can lead to a whole night conversation. It was just nice to be catching up with one another but still your words I can't seem to put to trust. Maybe its because I feel that you're always hiding things and up till now, you still are.

You don't have to know where I got those ideas from. Cause it's still pointless if everything doesn't come out from you and your own. However, I'm just glad that we're all cool again. Talking like nothing ever happened and even laughing at our silly arguments. I was just so happy that I couldn't stop smiling when you popped up out of nowhere. And again, maybe it's because we ended it without even talking to one another. It's just in a blink of an eye and then you left for a solid month. Anyhoos, I just felt a whole lot better after talking to you yesterday cause I can't deny you did play a big part in my life once. So see you around dude.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABYGIRL BASIRAH! One year older again and that's pretty fast huh? Let's put aside everything and meet up one fine day. Make sure its as soon as possible cause I know we've got alot to say. Have a rad birthday okay girl. Love you to bits and pieces.

Love's like wind, it blows away.

Rainbows and Storms

I hate the fact that I am really really super busy right now. With all the different things still going around me, it just makes me feel like giving up. One after another and I guess it'll never stop. I had to postpone the phuket trip which I've been looking forward to, to the next month. Exactly one month. Due to several things, we just had to replan everything again but this time, it'll be merrier cause another couple will be joining and hopefully another one. At the thought of it, it's gonna be friggin sexciting cause one, I'll be celebrating my birthday over there which will be a wish come true. I've been telling baby that I want us to celebrate either one of our birthdays overseas and hell yeah it'll happen. Second, with the company that I need, it's just gonna be great! Bestfriend, boyfriend, girlfriends = awesome. Now I am going to be more excited!  However, once I set my foot back here, I'm gonna be all crazy thinking about the boy's birthday. Tsk, why must it be so near?! teehee.

But I hope march's gonna be good. I can't wait for 7th too. Cause we're gonna rock and roll instead of partying this time. haha I miss partying though so girlssssssssss, when are we hitting the club again? It's been quite a while. Let's get crazy again cause I guess I really need it after hectic schedules all over. And boy, when will you have one day for me. I miss spending the whole day with you cause now you're too busy with your 6days work schedule. I is very sad you know. One day for me, pretty please. heheh mentel.

All in all, despite being troubled with so many things, I still how and when to be happy and laugh cause I'm sure these are obstacles which are there to challenge my strength and I know I gotta be strong. Yes Im tough. nyehehehe blog some other time cause Imma bounce now.